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For the past couple of years I’ve done a November List of Thankfuls or #30daysofthanks on twitter. It’s something that really helps me realize how blessed I really am. It usually only ends up on facebook, and since I’ve been anti-facebook these days, I wanted to share what I have so far
I am copying these directly from facebook, and maybe giving more thoughts in italics. 🙂
Day 1: Today I am thankful for carports. They keep my car free from frost and ice. Silly I know but it’s important to be thankful for the little things. That day I went to get in my car and noticed my neighbors cars that weren’t under a carport that had frost on them. I’ve been there. I will be there again I’m sure.
Day 2: Today I am thankful for this little book that came into my life called “Jesus Calling“. This book has truly changed my life, my thoughts on God, how I interact with God, my walk with God. SOOO many things. Everyday as I’m reading it I know that God is using it to speak truth into my life. It’s not the Bible, but I love it! There are days when I question if my book reads the same as everyone’s because it’s like they’re written directly for me in THAT moment.
Day 3: Today I am thankful for this little house 🙂
Day 4: Today I am thankful that I live in the same town as my sister and bil.. There is a comfort that comes in being near family.. We may not always have that so I will FOREVER be thankful for this time. This is such a blessing!!!
Day 5: Today I am thankful for kids that minister to my soul.. It’s been a day filled with laughter, fun pictures and videos, tickles, ice cream, silly hats and masks, reading time, playing mom and day, and so much more.. #blessed This was the weekend I kept the kids.. Man it was wonderful!
Day 6: I missed yesterday.. I am thankful for the kindness of strangers. I realized as I was leaving Andy and Jennifer’s neighborhood yesterday that I had a flat tire. I prayed that God would help me and not 30 seconds later a neighbor called out and changed my tire for me.
Day 7: Today I am thankful for how God answers prayers. (See Day 6). It’s during those quick answers that help me during the times when I have to wait..
Day 8: I am thankful for the people I work with. We’ve gone through some major changes in the past year, and it’s been stressful, but I am thankful for the team that has emerged out of this season. There is a lot of laughing, praying, and loving going on at NLCC. We are blessed.
Day 9: Today I am thankful for my sister Jessi. She is my best friend. She puts God first and loves me unconditionally.. She has a beautiful heart.. She loves others like Christ commanded us to love others.. She’s forgiving.. She’s fun to be around.. We laugh a lot when we’re together.. We can talk about everything and nothing and still get each other.. She always listens when I need to talk and gives me sound advice. (As my pastor put it, she is one of the few voices on my playlist.) I love her soo much and am incredibly thankful for her.
Day 10: Today I am thankful for Christmas and the joy that comes with this season. So I maybe put up my Christmas tree this week.
Day 11: Today I am thankful for New Zealand.. The country, the people, my teammates from America that I met there. So much of who I am today is because of the year I spent there. So many wonderful memories.. Happy 11:11:11 day. We had a special party to celebrate this day while we were there back in 2004, and every year we send each other texts/facebook notes saying that we’re thinking of each other.
That’s my list so far.. I hope you enjoyed 🙂 What are you thankful for??
I’m not the best writer. I don’t have a way with words, and am not always the most articulate. A lot of times I feel like I don’t make sense to others. But it makes sense in my head and heart. 🙂 This is one of those posts that I hope you understand my heart.
A lot has happened since my last post about my heart and what God is doing. God has answered prayers, given direction and peace. I’m EXCITED!!! I’ve been in touch with a girl in Nashville who is starting a Christian Nanny Agency, with more of a focus on the Christian music industry. I honestly don’t know all the details, we are still in the process of e-mailing and filling out applications, but I know when I read her post about how God was leading her, my heart told me this is what I’ve been looking for. So it’s looking like Nashville is a part of my near future. I’m not certain on dates, I’m still praying about all that. A part of me is ready to move tomorrow.. but I’m waiting on God’s timing. I’ve got a house to pack up and things to get rid of. I need to find a place to live and that’s scary. Plus I would like to save up some money before I go to help with the transition.
This past weekend I nannied for a family in our church, and my prayer was that God would confirm moving to Nashville to be a nanny through this weekend. I can’t say enough how He confirmed it over and over!!! I love my faithful God!!!! I was more at ease with those kids than I was when I was at my real job Sunday morning. It was like God was saying “Go forward, walk in this.” I loved every second with those kids. And I know that it’s not always going to be like that when I’m a nanny. It’s not going to be easy. But for God to confirm it in such a BIG way for me.. WOW! My heart is full of thankfulness for God and how He answers prayers.
As I’m looking into moving to Nashville, I’ve been praying through a lot of the fears and worries that I have. I know that it’s not going to be easy. I truly only know one family that lives there, and I’m coming from a town where I have a BIG family that surrounds me. This family here came in time, and I know that my Nashville family will come in time as well. It’s just one more area that I am going to have to trust God in.
This past year I’ve been reading the devotional book “Jesus Calling” and everyday it’s exactly what I’m going through. Sometimes I even wonder if my book says the same thing everyone’s does.. it’s THAT freaky at times. 🙂 Today I was reading about fears of the future. Check this out: “You tend to project yourself mentally into the next day, week, month, year, decade; and you visualize yourself coping badly in those times. What you are seeing is a false image, because it doesn’t include Me. Those gloomy times that you imagine will not come to pass, since My Presence will be with you at ALL times.” Those words spoke such truth to my soul this morning. I know that no matter what happens, I will be ok because God is with me. Those times of loneliness, those times of unknown, or confusion… God will be with me. So what that I hardly know no one.. so what that my family will be in Virginia and Texas. God is WITH ME. And with HIM I can do ANYTHING.
I was journaling through this last week, and the thing I found myself writing over and over, was TRUST HIM. That’s what’s it’s coming down to. He knows where I’m going to live. He knows who my friends will be. He knows the church I will attend and the people who I need in my life. We teach our kids in Upstreet that “I can trust God NO MATTER WHAT”. I LOVE this truth. I love that I am being reminded of it DAILY through this process. Is it scary.. HECK YEAH. But am I growing in my faith. You better believe it! And that makes it all worth it.
Happy Friday!! I hope everyone has a fun filled weekend with lots of little “God Moments”. I love the little “God Moments”. I also love the BIG “God Moments” as well but it’s the little ones that remind me that in the midst of all the craziness, God is there with us and He meets us where we’re at!
I’m really looking forward to this weekend! I’m having a high school girls sleepover at my house tonight (I may be crazy for doing this). And tomorrow I’m going on an out of town adventure with my sister for the afternoon. And there is the possibility of something else in another town with other friends that night if we get back in time. This is one of those weekends where I’m grateful I have Mondays off!
What are your weekend plans? Do something fun!
This past weekend my best friend from college came into town for a quick visit. I think it was 24 hrs to be exact. And who cares that I was only able to spend the first 12 with them.. Those were some of the best 12 hours I’ve spent in a long time. Katie is married and has 5 kids. To say that our lives are completely different would be the understatement of the century. But the great thing about our friendship, is that it doesn’t matter how long it’s been or what’s going on in our lives, we ALWAYS pick up right where we left off. And we all need friends like that. Katie is my longest friend (over 10 years) except for my sister and I thank God for her every day. We had a sleepover Saturday night, and while that made for a very long Sunday/work day.. I wouldn’t take any moment back. We stayed up till 3am talking, her kids all came and cuddled and wanted their Aunt Sundi time. Needless to say my love tank was filled & as they left I realized how much their visit fed my soul.
This is just a small collection of some of the pictures taken.
Katie and I 🙂
So how was your weekend?
Do you ever feel like you have all these questions but you can never get answers? Just me?!?! Great!
Lately I feel like I’m just not getting any answers. I’ve been praying for direction and it SEEMS like nothing is happening. Now I know God is at work here. I know that I can trust Him. I know that HE is in control. So why do I still struggle?
Let me give you a little background first. I’m right at three years into my first ministry job. The past two years have been some of the most difficult years of my entire life. Without going into a lot of details, just know that i grew up in the ministry, (I’m a pk and ministry is a part of my being) and these have been some of the worst years in my almost 30 years. I don’t love the town I live in but I do love the people here. And
most days everyday I think about moving. Mostly to Nashville, but honestly I would go almost anywhere. In spite of all that negative, I know that God has blessed me incredibly by the people He has placed into my life here. I have a family here. My sister & bil are here. My church family is here. So why can’t I be happy?? Is it time to move on?
I was telling a friend tonight how I think there’s something wrong with me. Somedays I know that for right now I’m where God wants me. I am praying for that to change (SOON), but I’m ok here. I want to make changes to some of the things in my life, but I’m ok. Happy.. No. Ok.. Yes.
Then other days I have the complete opposite of emotions. I want to run as far away from here & never look back. Not that I would.. (remember all those people God put into my life.. Yeah those..). But it’s not about running away, it’s that I need something new. I feel that my time here is up. I’ve done all that I can do and it’s time to move on. This town is to small and I can’t get away from the past that hurts me. (See I told you there was something wrong.).
The problem here is that the run away days far out weigh the good peaceful days. And the run away days happen on good days. (Nothing major happens to set this off..).
So this is where my questions come in. I know not to make a move without direction, so I know to stay put until God opens something or I feel a leading.. But how do I stop these emotions? Why am when I’m praying for direction.. Praying for God to move me.. I get nothing? What about this needs to change? As I’m typing this out I realize that something in my prayer needs to change.. But what? How can I seek God better in this? Do I need to pray differently?
I’m going to continue to seek counsel on this but if you think about it, please say a prayer for me. The fact is, I wanna be where God wants me. If that’s in small town Virginia, then so be it.. God change my heart. If He wants me in Nashville, or anywhere for that matter.. THAT’S where I want to be. Not because it makes me happy, but because it’s God’s will for me to be there. Will you join me in praying??
I’m still fairly new to this whole BLOG thing.. so sometimes it’s easy to let blogging fall to the wayside. Now this doesn’t mean I haven’t been reading blogs.. cause of course.. I wouldn’t miss that! 🙂
So for a little recap, I wanted to share with you some pictures of a concert we took the youth from our church to in August.. HAS IT BEEN THAT LONG?? Oh wow! Anyways.. in August we went to see Hillsong United. I have seen them several times, but never in America and never on tour. (Music festivals and small church gatherings in New Zealand before they hit it big.) I go through phases with United where I really like them, or I’m tired of their music.. hey, I’m a girl.. IT’S ALLOWED! 🙂
Sorry, these were taken with my iPhone and while typically they turn out great.. apparently the lens was dirty here. Me, Natalie, and Jessi (Hey Sister!!) Oh and can’t forget Sam and Ethan in the background.
Our seats weren’t the best, but they weren’t the worst either.. and it was worth it for the fun that was had!